Grieving
       Hangs
            Upon the shards of my Heart

Another shade of gray
Hammers a new tattoo upon my ligaments
I feel heavy
                       Dewdrop down
Lying there upon a blade of grass
              I’m weighing it down
It Heaves a rattled breath
         Tremors rocking down each side

Shifts away.
                Sifts again.

Peck of flashes
      A rumble echoes inward,
   Reverberating and I slip off
Plummet
                                                                 Hollow.

Obsidian stalactites cushion
                The flat planes of my back.
Flurries of black butterflies escaping from underneath me.
Cloud the skies.
Heralds the new addition of the crater I put on the ground.

Wrapped in gauze
            Simpering being am I.
Cracked fingernails etch idly
     The shapes of my nightmares
                Seeping into my farfetched dreams.

On the pavement.

Ugly verbose sloth.
             Dim-witted nothing.
                          Uncouth…

Stand.
               Disregard flightless phrases about fairies gifting you wings.
Get up.
       Howling expletives never lifts like a petal on the wind.
Hoist thyself straight.
        Moistening the earth with tears of self-loathing makes not a single seed sprout.
I command thee.
        Let go.

Let go.
                            Let go.

The silly fantasies you devour, devour you now.
Let go.
                                       Reality commands you to listen with every fiber
Every cell.
Let go.
                      The phoenix rises from these ashes as well.
                                                                  Let it go.
Let me die.
                                 I’ll restart, boot, and charge.
                                           For therein you begin to live.
Let me…




I feel hollow.
        Empty.
Is that what you wanted?
Is that what I wanted?

Too late to return now.
                 The remnants elude me.
What now…

What this?

Whatever t’is that light?